One of my most vulnerable poems. Reveals a darker side of me and my past relationships:
-4 Knights I Left In Night, But One, Be In The Light-
"In shadows deep, where whispers weave,
I stumbled through love's tempest, savagely and naïve.
Colin's laughter was a caged bird's fleeting tune,
Once soared through skies I then draped in gloom,
Amidst paper planes and picnics past,
Giggles framed in moments that couldn't last.
Echoes linger of mirth and delight,
I veiled in shadows of sorrowful night,
Regrets whisper softly beneath a melancholic refrain,
In the sepia-toned frames of joy's sweet domain.
Adam's kindness, a fleeting flame aglow,
Like dusk's soft whispers that come and go.
Entwined with hope, but my cruel insatiable delight,
Did fade his voice to echoes in the depths of night.
Puppy love's bloom within a delicate wisp of air,
In my chaotic grasp as a ghostly affair.
Glimmers of joy are now shrouded in mist,
Left me adrift in regret's haunting twist.
Sam's grace, a sailboat that I lost on sapphire seas,
Eyes like oceans, drowning in whispered pleas.
A canvas of art viciously smeared by my selfish disease,
Moments of beauty muffled with silent unease.
A solitary figure lost and adrift in my hazardous embrace,
Sinking beneath shadows, haunted by my cruel face.
Wistful echoes lingering in the hollow of his sighs,
Sam's grace, now a phantom under heartbreak's guise.
JT's steadfast gaze was a beacon in the haze,
Guided my steps through life's twisted maze.
In the gallery of romantic regrets, his shadow lingers still,
A whisper of hope in my world of a stinging bitter chill.
Amid friend-drowning rivers, I search for his smiling face,
A spectral reminder of our broken and gutted embrace.
Haunted by memories of love's sweet sparks,
Now lost in the shadows of my vicious and cruel arcs.
Late revelation inside a borderline storm lies a bitter awakening,
Unveiling truths in sorrow's disguised yet wasted forsaken spring.
Grief and regret like relentless waves,
For the hearts I left in emotional caves.
In the embrace of a patient soul, I seek reprieve,
From the tempest of my secretly sorrowful leave.
Memories linger, an aching melodic parade,
Of shattered hopes and love's cruel charade.
I loved these good knights, then stumbled upon the best,
Grateful for their love amidst my fear filled feral tests.
Yearning to be serene and softly angelic,
But my soul often strayed, dark and eclectic.
In the tapestry of human despair,
Seeking redemption through love's tender care.
A chapter of healing in life's poignant tome,
Longing for forgiveness as these shadows still roam.
To Colin, Adam, Sam, and JT,
Glimmers of light in my darkest past sea.
Cherishing moments, now lost in the mist,
Yearning for peace in love's elusive tryst.
May forgiveness bloom like a gentle rain,
In the garden of hearts boldly healing pain.
If I be redeemed by grace, from the shadows I flee,
In the serenade of life's symphony.
To you four knights I once kissed in glee,
May happiness find you, finally forever, you and me be free.
And to my Jason, my husband, my anchor and rest of life's guide,
In your strong love, the past sorrows I hope do subside.
For you, I care and cherish with all of my might,
As my way of redeeming for my past darkened knights."
-aubs
(the vulnerable villain turned overthinking griever, now pleading for forgiveness)
05/03/24
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